Jesus I am thirsty Wont you come and fill me Earthly things have left me dry Only You can satisfy All I want is more of You
a year ago
we were in the states// tripping around las vegas// taking a helicopter ride down the grand canyons and colarado river// walking out on see through glass elevated few hundred feet of the ground// navigating our way around chinatown in san fran to celebrate CNY// busy enjoying "yok kon" brought 2000 kilometers from Malaysia//
looking back at the pictures really makes me miss the yeongs! and family time. ps: checkout our super duper excited expression over the helicopter ride. ngeee. ;)
truth & love
in the light of the new year, this year's resolution is rather more achievable in some sense (as compared with the idea of loosing weight, hahah) and in some ways, more painful. pastor mentioned about how we should stop making excuses and shifting the blame. its funny how almost immediately after making a decision to stop shifting the blame on others, so many situations have cropped up as if to test this resolution. aiiih. sometimes its really hard to just admit "it was my fault."
recently, a few conversations with friends have popped up giving us a chance to be frank and honest with each other - about our weaknesses. something i really cringe thinking about. gah. its not easy hearing what others have to say about your weaknes. especially when you have been the one handing out the criticisms most of the time. something to be said about my need for humility.
nevertheless, i'm thankful for friends who care enough to be able to point out my faults, mistakes and weaknesses. you don't get many people like that in your life. :) Sue Ann posted this article on her facebook the other day, and it got me musing. You can't love with just encouragement and kind words. It requires truth, and the truth as much as we hate to admit it, hurts. The excerpt explains it really well, not just for marriage but any relationship in which we hope to love with God's love.
read more of the article here.
the reason that marriage is so painful and yet wonderful is because it is a reflection of the Gospel, which is painful and wonderful at once. The Gospel is: we are more sinful and flawed in ourselves than we ever dared to believe, and at the very same time we are more loved and accepted in Jesus Christ than we ever dared hope. This is the only kind of relationship that will really transform us. Love without truth is sentimentality; it supports and affirms us but keeps us in denial about our flaws. Truth without love is harshness; it gives us information but in such a way that we cannot really hear it. God’s saving love in Christ, however, is marked by both radical truthfulness about who we are and yet also radical, unconditional commitment to us. The merciful commitment strengthens us to see the truth about ourselves and repent. The conviction and repentance moves us to cling to and rest in God’s mercy and grace.
into the early morning
"Search me O God, and know my heart, test me and know my anxious thoughts. And see if there is any wicked way in me & lead me in the way everlasting."
Psalms 139:23-24
dream of the beautiful
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instead of pictures to show my wardrobe accumulation (ahem) over the winter break, I thought a little nice video would do. The sun streaming in the window mid afternoon was perfect. This winter, I have gravitated towards all things sparkly, decked in sequins and lace. My favourite silver jumper hangs to the left. And the other two, though I must admit, are not very winter wise are actually presents for people back home. :D Sue Ann, the blue sheer top is yours! hahha sending it over soon. In real life, my red suede heels are actually sitting very sadly in a corner having not been worn anywhere else except round my room, by me, and my girlfriends who drop by the house. With all that walking around in Hatfield, and no chance of a car, one can only dream of wearing such pretty things out. hahha
On a side note, this week's weather consists of lotsa sunshine but with the most ferocious wind you've ever come across. nearly got blown away walking home yesterday. eek. still no sign of snow. im beginning to think it won't ever snow. okays, now that ive done this, its back to the real work.