kid sigh. i think i only write in here when my brain and heart has gone all wonky. reliving a little part of the day in reminiscence of the last two years has definitely gotten to me. Dear God. Its hard to let go. Help me to live a life that finds satisfaction and fulfillment in You. And only You alone. Its so hard, to submit all my feelings, emotions, desires, wants and will to You. but I need to. and I want to try. “Search me O God, and know my heart, test me and know my anxious thoughts. And see if there is any wicked way in me & lead me in the way everlasting.“

Psalms 139:23-24